Moments

There are moments, when your heart is fulfilled with happiness. And there are moments when you realize, that despite having EVERYTHING, the last thing you feel is happiness in your heart. I thought I am an expert in both, though I have the feeling I know nothing.

I haven’t produced anything since a while. No article, no poem. I was missing the energy; I was missing the reason. I used to write articles while spending the nights at airports, at the different corners of this planet. I cannot sleep at airports. I haven’t seen any airport since a while. I am missing it.

I used to write poems. Being either very unhappy or very happy. It’s been a while since the last one. I don’t remember exactly which one it was, I wrote a lot of them. For her. I almost finished one poem today. The final piece is still missing, soon, very soon it will come. I hope so much for a different time this time. So much I dream.

There are moments, when even a wine spilled on the table means nothing serious, when my own imagination kidnaps my mind into a different world. Into a dream. Today I am not drinking, though today I love to dream. World of colors, smiles, hugs and kisses. A perfect world.

My whole life I am in a hurry. To Somewhere. For something. For SOMEONE. I am inpatient. During the last year I slowed down, at least I tried. It’s been years, since a person gave me a golden recommendation, I’ve been thinking about during the last weeks a lot. HURRY UP SLOWLY, she said. Three simple words, so much power. Words can be powerful. And I am in a hurry. I tried not to be, at least during the last year. Today I have the feeling I learned nothing.

There are moments, when even the cruelest thought you have won’t catch up the imagination in your head. And there are moments, when you try to solve the whole world. I am trying to solve the whole world, my whole life. Despite the brain trying to lead me to patience. I can’t do it. I am not capable of doing it. Some say it’s about training your mind; they say all we feel in our hearts results from an idea in our mind anyway. Our heart is pure, our brain is wise. And some say the best thing you can do is to listen to your heart and not follow your brain. Now try to be not confused from all this.

There are moments, when your life is being turned end for, just like that and in one second. You can travel the whole world and you cannot escape from it anyway. Everything happens for a reason. You can try to fight against it. You can try to listen. Listen to yourself, to your heart. Simply, there are moments, when, either you want it or not, things will happen, and it will be mighty. Mightier than any other opposite decision you would want to make.  

And there are moments you hope will never end. Like the moments with you…