When it all started

22 April 2017 was supposed to be the day which would have changed my life forever. One of the days you meet your destiny. The moment when the time stops and suddenly you feel the universe is yours. You are the whole universe. On such a day, you meet your destiny, or at least a very important piece of it.

This was supposed to be the day with a crucial impact on how things started to run since then. Today I know, that the destiny didn’t have the look of an blue-eye angel I kissed that night the first time, as I would initially have thought. She was not my destiny and it was all much more complicated than just a sexy ass and the most beautiful smile I could ever imagine. But she was there. She was part of the story and she gave the story a crucial direction. She was the key to a lock, yet to be unlocked with pain and broken heart. She will always be a very important part of the story…

…and here I am today. Sometimes I imagine what would have happened, if it all would run into a different direction. If I wouldn’t go to that party that night. If there would be no kiss that night. Or if there would be much more kisses after the initial 3 months of dreaming. And if there would be much more from everything… In life, there are never “different directions”, life doesn’t count with “sometimes” and “what if”. Every moment happens as it is supposed to happen and from a certain reason. The moment I kissed the blue-eye angel, on that 22 April 2017, was supposed to be one of the most important moments in my life. A moment of a change. A fairy tale, painful in the beginning, but with a happy end. And all what would happen in between is supposed to be pure life.

That night was a milestone, which led me right to the story I have been telling you since a while already….